Goals.

Are you one of those people who says “I don’t believe in new years resolutions” ?

I am.

And like any budding therapist, the other day I said this–and then proceeded to analyze the roots of this “belief” of mine.

Here’s what I found.

  • I’m afraid to verbalize a goal because I’m afraid if I don’t achieve it I’ll be mad at myself, and other people will judge my failure.
  • I’m afraid that I could achieve the goal.. change is scary, even if it is in the direction of success.
  • I’m scared that I’ll lose track of my goal, forget, and fail.

Basically, I’m scared. Just a few months ago I made a promise to myself that I was going to stop being limited by my fears. So I think I will make goals, and I’m going to make them in a very LOUD way, I’m going to post them here on my blog.

Now I don’t know how “loud” that is seeing as no one reads my blog…ha.

I’m the spirit of the law of attraction, and the beautiful, inspiring Hannah Howlett, I’m going to go ahead and just write my goals as if I’ve achieved them, and visualize the heck out of it. TAKE THAT FEAR.

 

  • I am so happy that I am healthy and confident in my body. It feels so good to weigh the amount I weigh right now. I love the way I look in the mirror, but more importantly I love the way I feel in my body.
  • I feel healthier than I have ever felt, it feels good to be this physically fit. I am so proud that I can now kick into a handstand with out support of a wall, my arms are my core are really strong now. I can do crow pose and pincha! It feels amazing
  • It feels so incredible to be able to run 2-3 miles without stopping. I’m proud of myself for being able to increase my cardiovascular strength and staying dedicated.
  • I’m so happy I got the job!! I got an amazing MFTI position. Its local, Its well paid, its a position that I love with a great company, and I’ll earn a lot of hours. I knew I would get a great job once I left the center.
  • I’m so grateful that I have such a loving and incredible partner in my life. We support each other in every sense of the word. We are planning an amazing future together. We  never fight, and when we disagree or misunderstand each other we take the time to talk it out, to communicate whats happening and solve it together. We make an incredible team. This year was a big change, we lived together for the first time ever, and while it was new and challenging at times, we’ve never been happier or stronger as a couple.
  • I’m really happy to say that 2017 is the year I once and for all abolished my old eating disorders. Its been 15 long years, but I’m glad we have separated. I’ve been doing a little better each year, but i’m positive that I will Never again dip back into my old ways. I love my body and take care of it.
  • I’m glad that while doing all of this I have kept time for my art. I’m always growing as an artist. people like my work and buy things I make off of my Etsy account. Its wonderful to sell my pieces because I know they are bringing someone else joy and spreading positive energy, Its also nice to not have them in the house! My house is too small for all my art pieces.
  • I am so happy that this year is the year I really became a minimalist. I have dedicated myself to paring down the amount of “stuff” filling my house and my car. with less stuff I feel freer, and it is easier to clean and organize my belongings.

 

So there we have it. my 2017 in a nutshell. I’m not scared I won’t do it, because you know what… I can do anything. My life is a product of myself. I’m in control of what I accomplish. I’m accomplishing it.

So, Kai 2018, how did I do?

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